Medication Merry Go Round

I’m starting another round in my search for a medication that helps me with my depression and anxiety.

The name of this round is Lexapro.

I’ve already finished up the Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Depakote, and Pristiq rounds.

I know that sometimes people try many different things before finally landing on something helpful.

But I also know that sometimes nothing ever really helps.

I’m trying to maintain a reasonable balance between hopefulness and resignation.

I’m in therapy as well, and right now I feel like that is doing the most help. I really like my new therapist, and I am already learning new things about myself by working with her. She is the right combination of comfortable to talk to while also pushing me in directions I might not go on my own.

I have seen some helpfulness on every medication I’ve tried, but then that effect subsides. So I expect to get a little happier here in the next couple of weeks, and then I’ll see what happens after that.


I always take a selfie on therapy day. Therapy is an intensely personal thing, and it’s all about taking care of myself. Celebrating my image on the same day seems so appropriate.

Plus there’s a big mirror in the building where I go to therapy!

This week was so cold, I got to rock my arm warmers.

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  1. Good luck! I did Lexapro for a while. It worked… but not enough. For me the effect lessened with time, but the side effects got worse. So it was back to the drawing board for me.

    I have found success with Lovan (Prozac in the US), but it took a lot of trial and error before I got there. I hope you find the right one soon, I know how yuck the whole trial and error thing is.

  2. One of my best friends recently came through a years-long spell of a combo of meds for her that worked amazingly. I honestly couldn’t believe how well she was doing, after years and years of struggling to find one or some that worked and didn’t contraindicate. She recently suffered a setback and said not all meds will always work all the time, but she’s still hopeful. After having a block of time where she felt ‘normal’, she now knows it’s possible. I would have never thought it was true if I hadn’t seen it with my own eyes. She’d been hospitalized for depression many many times over the years and then like I said, had a really good run for a very long time.

    ((hugs)) and good luck!

    • I should correct… I don’t think she ever used the word “normal” and I know you’ve blogged about that very thing. I will say she wasn’t suicidally depressed for many years and had a highly functional life for those years.

      • I know what you mean, no worries about the word choice. I really love to hear stories of people who found that long lasting relief, even if it isn’t completely permanent. It sounds so tantalizing to have a freaking BREAK from the current state of my brain, even if I knew the med combo would need more tweaks later on.

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