Blogging About Not Blogging
I’ve been ignoring LoveLiveGrow for awhile now. I’m not sure whether I’m going to get back into writing or not. It’s hard to say at this point. Once I was too depressed to write so I wrote about being too depressed to write, and that had the positive result of me writing more about depression. Do you think that’ll work for not-blogging? I’ll write about not-blogging and then somehow not-blogging will become a rich source of content? Probably not.
I’m not in a depression and haven’t been for awhile. I’m experiencing another kind of state which, frankly, is probably most like a mid-life crisis. I just feel a general apathy and low-level confusion about big swaths of my life. I’m stressed out about money. I don’t want to do housework or errands. I’m a little bit angry all the time. I’m not sure what I want to do with my life. I kind of want to run away.
Mixed in with that I’m having a fairly good time. We went to Euphoria, Georgia’s summer burn, and I had a great time. I got a big stock tank to use as a backyard pool, and playing in it with Dylan is a wonderful, peaceful fun. I’ve read a bunch of books. I’ve learned to play Texas Hold’em. I started smoking again awhile back, and I’m loving that. I got some new chicks, and they are growing up adorably.
Life is good. It’s just kind of mentally… lethargic. Maybe it’s summer. Maybe it’s nothing.